once again i cant sleep.

why does this always happen to me?

i swear i get so stressed out && im loosing sleep and not eating...

ive been this way ever since i could remember. this is nothing new. i just figured eventually it would stop as i got older....but here i am 21....still not eating for long periods of time. trying to sleep life away. and then when its really time to sleep all i do is stare at the ceiling blasting my ipod.

why is life the way that it is?

like forreal, honestly. since i was little. life was never lovely.. 

i d k

and...all of that made me the crazy little girl i am today that everyone manages to love and treat like shit.

ugh. just venting. i know God has put all of this in my life to teach me lessons. BUT at the same time im tired of learning. can i please just have a good amount of happiness with no sadness? please jesus please? =)

in the end i know i'll be fine. 

"try to change what you can.

and accept all the things that you cannot.

don't stress yourself. baby"