as i sit in my bed. wrapped in my snuggly robe. i start to think about this past year.

boy was alot of drama. last new years was wonderful, i thought it was gonna be a lonely celebration, but he surprised me and rang in the new year with his boo [me]. my bday was rollercoaster. all thanks to him. lol... school was a trying time for me. spring o8 was a hard one. i had many goals to accomplish that semester. to keep my baby strong as he became a que. and for me to get good enough grades to boost my gpa. i succeeded in both. 

summer was tough. no job. my only support of money was him. lol. my besties were there to help me out alot too. my parents weren't too much of help. for all they could do was blame each other for the mess they both got me into. summer was when i found out i wasn't going back to school this past semester. summer was when i went on a cruise with my wifey. summer was when i realized that alot of things that i wanted could only happen from me making it happen. 

summer was when we celebrated our 1 yr anniversary and i realized i never wanted him to leave. summer was when all i did was fight with my daddy and spite my step mom. summer was when me and my mom loved each other again.

as i said my goodbyes to all my friends as they left for school. i had a big breakdown. i felt like i was in park and everybody else was moving on in their lives. but i knew i was going thru this tough time all for a good reason that would make all this suffering worth it. i finally got a job. making money became my 1st priority. in the fall my lil sister cherish became my 2nd. living at home gave me a reality check. i learned alot. experienced wayy too many emotions. 

the beginning of winter we broke up. it took an entire month for me to realize why we were on a break and that we both needed to grow up, learn a little more, and then come back together so we could be stronger. we're not back together yet. but i gotta feeling that we're kinda close. [maybe.] anyways. the winter i became a homebody. i rarely club anymore. i don't go out too much. just work, sleep, family time, and some eating here and there is all i do. 

which brings me to where i am now. sitting in my bed. on new years eve. just got off work. waiting for him to call me. he said he would visit. but we'll see about that one. i pray he does come over. i miss him alot. =) ..... anyways.....

hopefully 2oo9 will be filled with more happiness, then learning lessons like 2oo8 was....

im not gonna say new year new me like every other person in the freaking world.

 all im gonna say is 2oo9 be better than the last. 

happy new years everybody.