.idk how im feeling. so stuck in complacent. i have no desire to leave my situation. or stay here...i just dont care about it anymore.
.i feel like hes drowning and hes holding me down there with him. i want to save him. but i need to save myself. first. but as i begin to save myself. i start to contemplate even going back for him. but i want to help him. so bad. at one point he was basically my everything. but him being confused with his ownself isnt helping me so what am i to do...im at a crossroads. cuz there's nothing i can do but walk away. but at the same time i dont want to wander off too far...
.i hate how im not in school. and i have no clue where or if ill be attending school in the fall. my heart is at towson. future obligations are at towson. i dont want to be anywhere else. but my dad is making offers for me to go to bowie. ugh.
.my family is killing me!! everytime we're together i feel like its the brytni hour. and everybody takes turns in telling me how i need to run my life. but little do they know they're the ones running my life. honestly. theyre not making any situation any better.
.i need to save up some money and just get away. live by myself. maybe something with my friends. an apartment.maybe.
wtf.
im done ranting. im too sleepy to continue. if i did. id just be writing in circles...
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