it feels like everything is just doing bad and going wrong.
the only things that are looking up are my job situation [which i start today btw] and me and my sunshinee [ i swear sometimes hes the only thing that can keep my sane]
but besides that, my dad is being super crazy with this money thing. like his reasoning is not rational at all. and he wants me to go along with his plan and i don't want to. i refuse to transfer to maryland or god awful bowie [no offense to any bulldogs or terps - its just not the place for me] i planned on being a towson tiger till the day i died. but im starting to think that that dream is fading.
and i wish i could be rich, have my own place and take my little sister away from it all. id rather not go into it. but when i see her, i see myself. and i see all the reasons why i left my mom and step dad whenever i look at her.....
[id do anything for that girl. put her on my back and carry her. i would]
so i start work today. there are 4 things i plan on spending my first paycheck on: a new phone, black heels, cpu adapter, && and ticket to new york to see hubby. he came to visit me, and now its my turn. so now i gotta save up some money. cuz im tired of him spending all his money on me [yup, imma great gf. i get mad sometimes about how much money he spends on me]
but hopefully things will start to look up. i must stay optimistic. thats the only way im gonna get thru life [besides jesus, duh]
=)
peace.love.happiness.bish.
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